CROSSROADS

There are many crossroads in your life big and small. Some you are not even aware of and then some where you are standing there thinking "this is going to be big". Last month I was standing in front of a sign and making a decision to choose between a job that number one didn't fit my personality & wasn't my thing if that makes sense and number two wasn't treating me fairly & began nit picking at every thing I did or choosing my family, my sisters and a much needed fun trip and adventure.

Work is important. I mean you have to work to live. I know that. I understand that. But I was given an ultimatum of choose your family & you will lose your job.

My deciding factor. I thought this: When I am laying on my death bed will I regret losing this job that isn't me to begin with and is treating unfairly or will I regret not having the cherished memories of laughter and adventure with my sisters?

I knew that in the short run I would regret losing a job (in this market who wouldn't) and that there would be some financial cringes, but at the end of my life I would regret more not having these memories with my sisters. And that is exactly what I told the job as I packed up my desk and walk out of the office and went home and packed a suitcase for my adventure with my sisters.

As they say when one door closes another one opens..........

And it did. And you know what I never regretted walking out of that office not even for a second. I did and have continued to do a few financial cringes here and there, but I have no regret on the decision I made.

I have always wanted a job where I am helping people.

I have always wanted a job the contributed to making someone's life better.

I have always wanted a job out of cube-ville.

I have always wanted a job where I can use my creativity.

I got back from trip on a Monday and that Friday amazingly a door opened. A chance given to me (that I will always be grateful for) that was like a dream come true. Good bye cube-ville. Hello helping others. Hello working to make someones life just a little bit better. Hello creative-ville. Activities at a long term care facility.

Don't get me wrong this is a lot of work. And it is exhausting and trying work, and I will have to be taking some classes. But only being there one week I have already fallen in love with the residents, and I get a huge swelled heart when I feel a break through, and hear their laughter, and see them smile.

I don't want to get to the end of my life and regret not doing everything that my heart and head and body would have allowed me to do. I don't want to regret staying on a path for financial security reason or because of fear . I have spent 34 years of my life trying to find my path, something that makes me happy, some little way of my own to make the world better, and to give to others......other than being a mother cause that's like my Gold prize right there. I've always known I can do more and be more and find more joy and more satisfaction career wise.

And from that crossroad and from that old door closing. I feel like I have finally found a place or a place closer to where I want to be career wise.

And I am so excited for the adventure I have just step into and I look forward to the challenges and satisfaction and ups and downs and wonderful and horrible and everything in between that will come with it.

Let the ADVENTURE continue.